a letter for the bottom of the sea

I just wanted you to know that I've come to realize what I do about us, and maybe I've even grown up a bit. I would have left me if I were you, I didn't deserve you in the state I was in. I was pathetic and weak by my own choice, when now I realize how happy I should have been to have you. I probably shouldn't bother with all this, but I just feel like everything good in our relationship was far more valuable than everything I fucked up. Part of me wants to believe I didn't ruin everything. I hope you're happy and I hope you think of me now and then. I think about you every day. I miss you, and I'm sorry. 

-L